You Must Believe

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..that the love you desire to access is within you
That there is in fact, no reason to desire, only the ability to feel and transcend
Your suffering will end once desire ends and desire will end once the source is accessed..

To be honest, spirituality can sometimes feel like chasing your own tail..

But isn’t life like that?

A constant fluctuation or hot/cold, dark/light, here/there

Ponder that..

etc.

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Woken Up

4am
To the sound of my roommate banging some chick
WTH dude….
Bang her when I’m in REM
Why at 5 in the morning randomly
I’ve been asleep this whole time

WORST timing ever

Unlike a lot of you perverts ;) I do NOT get off on the sound of other people having sex
It really creeps me out
It is just ugh
I don’t like it
I’m trying to sleep, not hear cats being run over by cars

Thank God for walk in closets
My headphones broke yesterday :/
I stepped in and Instagram surfed for about 20 minutes

Ugh

The Only Remedy

I’ve saved up almost enough for an apartment
I’m saving hard and I’m going to continue pushing :)
I will get a great apartment and I will be happy in the peace and quiet of my own place
You just watch

:)

Until then….KISS KISS, BangBang

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Guardians of the Galaxay

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Amazing movie that gives me an Avatar/ Save the World type of feeling

The graphics were top notch and the comedic timing was on point

My favorite character was the snarky fox( forgot his name). Kind of reminded me of myself….

Zoe Saldana’s body was heavenly to gaze upon and the lead actor was super man gorgeous

The sound track was a bunch of old hits

I always exit these types of movies feeling sad & slightly disappointed

Real life starts as soon as you exit the theatre doors & then you’re just like fuhhh…

Good News Is…

We can be our own super heroes

Change in the world starts with changing ourselves/ perspective

Change is here for all of us to grasp if we reach far enough

Let’s guard our own galaxy

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Sometimes

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I let people in too easily and I’m too honest
So honest that my weaknesses are revealed and then they are used as weapons against me
It’s literally too much sometimes
At times I just want to be a femme monk or a nun
Just so I can be free from the confines of the selfish and patriarchal world
So that I can just be at peace and withdraw from a world full of sex, drugs and ego
So that I can just live in a stable and nourishing environment
…..one day

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Post Gig Life

Got back home from a wedding gig around 4am
We totally killed it!
I especially know that we did because over 10 people from the family thanked and congratulated us
That made me feel great
Being a wedding singer is all about enhancing the most important day of two partners lives and I only want to be of good service to others, especially through song, the most glorious form of expression…:)

I have meditated a fair amount since the last gig and feel a TON more centered than I did while traveling
I DO feel sluggish…
But not…..dried up!
I have recently upped my water intake by at least 50% and so now I feel more energised and able to take on whatever the day has to offer
Today was full of relaxation; something that I have always had a tough time doing
It feels so good to chill out and settle in with the stillness of the universe
A stillness that I could benefit from accessing more
It feels like a secret beach that is beautiful yet eerily vacant

Today I told my self how much I loved Me
It felt weird but amazing, it allowed me to feel less alone and less in need of anyone else
Just a month ago I was in a long term relationship and now I’m back alone in my bed but you know what?
I am happier than ever
I have myself and my mental health
In this state I am more effective and able to love those around me as well as attract positive energy towards me
I am grateful for the ability to Love myself and need no one/ nothing else
It is the ability to look within for all of the answers
It is within that I find an unlimited source of energy needed to fill any voids

All in All

I Had a great Sunday
It wasn’t boring, it was peaceful

:)

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Self-Love Sunday #2

Today I will do everything things that I Love:

Yoga
Running
Reading
Writing Music
Eating pizza
Organising
Hang Out with Friends

When I remain true to myself and do all of the things that make me happy, I feel as though I am better equipped with the energy that is necessary to love and help others

:)

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