Shot a pro video for one of my cover bands last Sunday but forgot to post it so…..here is the update!
This video is for our electronic press kit
We will post this video online for future clients to view and also to send out to agencies that can give us more gigs
All of the cameras make you feel like a star ⭐️Here I am at every angle lol 🌜🌛
It’s like they want to suck out all of my positive energy
Sometimes I just have to break and consciously place myself far far away in vicinity mentally and physically
Like….get bitchy as hell and be like “I need my personal space, please stop”
People don’t get it any other way
They don’t accept or realise any hints I make
” I’ll just be over here” or ” I’m going outside” or ” I need a second” or physically turning away from the conversations never seems to ring a bell
What is up with this!??
An I constantly attracting people with Aspergers???
I’m so over this
I notice people’s body language, I notice their tone, I am very aware of the vibe
I let people come to me, I do not harass or impose upon them
Why can I not get this back in return!?
..that the love you desire to access is within you
That there is in fact, no reason to desire, only the ability to feel and transcend
Your suffering will end once desire ends and desire will end once the source is accessed..
To be honest, spirituality can sometimes feel like chasing your own tail..
But isn’t life like that?
A constant fluctuation or hot/cold, dark/light, here/there
To the sound of my roommate banging some chick
Bang her when I’m in REM
Why at 5 in the morning randomly
I’ve been asleep this whole time
WORST timing ever
Unlike a lot of you perverts ;) I do NOT get off on the sound of other people having sex
It really creeps me out
It is just ugh
I don’t like it
I’m trying to sleep, not hear cats being run over by cars
Thank God for walk in closets
My headphones broke yesterday :/
I stepped in and Instagram surfed for about 20 minutes
The Only Remedy
I’ve saved up almost enough for an apartment
I’m saving hard and I’m going to continue pushing :)
I will get a great apartment and I will be happy in the peace and quiet of my own place
You just watch
I let people in too easily and I’m too honest
So honest that my weaknesses are revealed and then they are used as weapons against me
It’s literally too much sometimes
At times I just want to be a femme monk or a nun
Just so I can be free from the confines of the selfish and patriarchal world
So that I can just be at peace and withdraw from a world full of sex, drugs and ego
So that I can just live in a stable and nourishing environment