House of Cards Video Shoot

Shot a pro video for one of my cover bands last Sunday but forgot to post it so…..here is the update!
This video is for our electronic press kit
We will post this video online for future clients to view and also to send out to agencies that can give us more gigs
Good times!
All of the cameras make you feel like a star ⭐️Here I am at every angle lol πŸŒœπŸŒ›

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Overwhelmed

People get addicted to me
I hate it

It’s like they want to suck out all of my positive energy

Sometimes I just have to break and consciously place myself far far away in vicinity mentally and physically

Like….get bitchy as hell and be like “I need my personal space, please stop”

People don’t get it any other way
They don’t accept or realise any hints I make
” I’ll just be over here” or ” I’m going outside” or ” I need a second” or physically turning away from the conversations never seems to ring a bell

What is up with this!??
An I constantly attracting people with Aspergers???

I’m so over this
I notice people’s body language, I notice their tone, I am very aware of the vibe

I let people come to me, I do not harass or impose upon them
Why can I not get this back in return!?
Help!!!!!

😁😁😁

You Must Believe

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..that the love you desire to access is within you
That there is in fact, no reason to desire, only the ability to feel and transcend
Your suffering will end once desire ends and desire will end once the source is accessed..

To be honest, spirituality can sometimes feel like chasing your own tail..

But isn’t life like that?

A constant fluctuation or hot/cold, dark/light, here/there

Ponder that..

etc.

πŸ’‹

Woken Up

4am
To the sound of my roommate banging some chick
WTH dude….
Bang her when I’m in REM
Why at 5 in the morning randomly
I’ve been asleep this whole time

WORST timing ever

Unlike a lot of you perverts ;) I do NOT get off on the sound of other people having sex
It really creeps me out
It is just ugh
I don’t like it
I’m trying to sleep, not hear cats being run over by cars

Thank God for walk in closets
My headphones broke yesterday :/
I stepped in and Instagram surfed for about 20 minutes

Ugh

The Only Remedy

I’ve saved up almost enough for an apartment
I’m saving hard and I’m going to continue pushing :)
I will get a great apartment and I will be happy in the peace and quiet of my own place
You just watch

:)

Until then….KISS KISS, BangBang

😩

Guardians of the Galaxay

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Amazing movie that gives me an Avatar/ Save the World type of feeling

The graphics were top notch and the comedic timing was on point

My favorite character was the snarky fox( forgot his name). Kind of reminded me of myself….

Zoe Saldana’s body was heavenly to gaze upon and the lead actor was super man gorgeous

The sound track was a bunch of old hits

I always exit these types of movies feeling sad & slightly disappointed

Real life starts as soon as you exit the theatre doors & then you’re just like fuhhh…

Good News Is…

We can be our own super heroes

Change in the world starts with changing ourselves/ perspective

Change is here for all of us to grasp if we reach far enough

Let’s guard our own galaxy

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Sometimes

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I let people in too easily and I’m too honest
So honest that my weaknesses are revealed and then they are used as weapons against me
It’s literally too much sometimes
At times I just want to be a femme monk or a nun
Just so I can be free from the confines of the selfish and patriarchal world
So that I can just be at peace and withdraw from a world full of sex, drugs and ego
So that I can just live in a stable and nourishing environment
…..one day

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